I’m starting with the man in the mirror
I’m asking him to change his ways
No message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself – then make that change
We are right in the middle of a giant wave of change that’s going to alter the way we live – drastically! All over the world, denial is falling apart and the will of humanity is trying to push its way out of suppression. We are told we have free will, but we never really got to choose how we would live our lives. The choices are limited to a system which controls us from the moment we are born until the day we die. The truth is that we are only just beginning to understand what free will is, and it starts with openness and truth.
It is breathtaking to watch humanity’s story unfold before our very eyes on what we call the ‘world stage’, knowing that you, me, and everyone on Earth IS humanity, and that those events are outer reflections of what’s going on inside each of us. It’s exciting to watch denial fall, allowing truth and hope to filter through. But it is alarming and frightening to see the other side of the equation in which the suppressors are fighting back and, although they cannot stop humanity’s evolution, are putting up brutal resistance to it, and there is no telling how far their reach still is or how long they can last.
It does seem that we have been thinking about change from too narrow a point of view. Yes, we have a very long way to go, and some people are having to fight so much harder than others to bring themselves into freedom and acceptance, but the potential for massive change – a fundamental shift in our consciousness towards peace, fairness and true fulfillment – has never been greater.
July is a 9 month in the world. This is derived from adding the 11 year (2009) to the 7th month. 11+7=18. 1+8 = 9. 9 is the number of endings, completions, deep emotions, and global awareness. 9 is the number of great kindness and generosity – and it is also the number of unspeakable cruelty and meanness.
9’s connection to 2, 11, 4, 22, 29 and 911 this month is very powerful, unpredictable and SLOW. If we try to move at a faster pace than it is going, the stress will be unbearable. Only by slowing ourselves down and taking one day at a time will we be able to see and sense what’s happening. We will miss vital details and essential awareness if we try to rush (or distract) our way through it. By slowing down to the same pace as the energy we’re in, we will be able to see how far we have already come, and how much closer and caring people have become in general.
People are now far more able to empathize with and support fellow human beings around the world, instead of seeing each other as some kind of threat. The appetite for war and violence is lower than ever, people are sick and tired of the phoniness, the jockeying for position, the greed, the lies, the cruelty and the hypocrisy of showing one face to the world while, in reality, are someone else entirely.
People everywhere are feeling the peacefulness and calm that the 2 energy emits. But because 2 is the number of sensitivity, we cannot help but feel our feelings more acutely, and because 7 (July is the 7th month) often triggers fear (7 represents learning about the unknown), we must remember that all emotions have more than one level, volume or effect. Fear’s purpose is to alert us to anything which may require caution on our part. It comes to us in many different forms, on different levels of intensity and velocity, and for different reasons.
We should, therefore, be careful about blaming fear for all our ills. After all, it is often ‘fear of the alternative’ that wakes people up and guides them to a more peaceful and sustainable approach. It is not a matter of banishing fear from our lives. It is a matter of raising our awareness of reality so that we can more easily assess what needs to be feared and what doesn’t. Facing reality can trigger all sorts of fears, which are often dissolved by the desire to evolve and move ahead.
We are starting to look more closely at ourselves and each other with a level of feeling and acceptance we had not reached before. As denial falls away and reality stares back at us, we are becoming more real with ourselves and each other.
Our emotions are being churned around for a good reason. It’s because we are in the evolutionary process of raising our awareness of life to a much higher frequency. This awareness is not coming directly from our consciousness. On the contrary, our minds must open to let this new form of awareness in. Of course it is not new at all. It is a part of ourselves that we have not allowed to operate as it should. It is the power of our emotions that is drawing our attention to what’s really happening in the world and enabling us to feel what we really feel about it.
The vibrations of emotion open the mind to new understandings, and expression of emotion is the basis of creativity. However, the more we deny our emotions, the more emotional our lives will become until we do indeed accept them as part of what we ARE. By choosing to deny our emotional power, we are choosing to learn from experiences we don’t want to have.
We are witnessing the rise of the human will, the shattering of hypocrisy, and the collapse of denial. We are watching other people’s denials fade away under the mighty illumination of 11, and we’re watching their truths come tumbling out. But we’re not just watching it, we’re feeling it. And it’s happening in our own lives, too. It’s time to be honest about how we feel.
We should listen deeply to Michael Jackson’s MAN IN THE MIRROR because it depicts our exact position in the human journey at this time – which also happens to be the time of his death – an event which, love him or hate him, has triggered the emotions of a huge section of humanity, covering 3 generations. In a year and month that are filled with 11’s, Man In The Mirror depicts one reflecting on oneself. We have to face our own reflection and SEE who we really are. 11 = self acceptance. And acceptance of others (peace) can only come through self acceptance.
Lionel Ritchie remarked that Jackson was “a world phenomenon. He was very misunderstood, yet tried desperately to be a part of this world. We all watched him as he struggled with that balance.” That’s how I saw him, too.
Michael Jackson was born on the 29th (2+9=11) and, to this numerologist, it is not surprising to me that he left this world in 2009. Even his “THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL” has enormous relevance to what we are experiencing on Earth right now. His words are so much more profound than the label of ‘pop’ allows many to realize. I believe that what Michael Jackson left behind is more valuable than we can imagine right now, not in terms of how much money can be made from his unique art, but in terms of how on point and inspiring his words are.
His death also touches those who are interested in the date December 21, 2012, and the abrupt ending of the Mayan Calendar despite its magnificent efficiency and accuracy up until that point, and all the speculation that goes with this phenomenon. This stood out clearly as I read the press coverage of Michael Jackson’s death.
“The 911 call went in at 12:21. But it was already too late.”
911 are important numbers in current evolutionary movement, and are not just the emergency code for the United States. The symbolism in this instance suggests that if we wait until 12-21-2012 to make the necessary changes in ourselves and on Earth, it will, indeed be too late.
2012 appears to be a tipping point in the journey – a point of no return. We must evolve as we need to, as there will be no time in which to do so at the last moment. Therefore, speculating as to what may happen on that date is irrelevant. It is what we do – or stop doing – LEADING UP TO THAT DATE that matters.
And then, as if to repeat the warning, I read: Jackson was pronounced dead at 2:26pm, and again 18 minutes later at 2:44pm.
1+8 (minutes) = 9
There is an emergency going on in the world. There IS urgency here. “Gotta make it right while you got the time” he sings in Man in The Mirror, which is essentially about CARING for other lives besides our own – and that change starts within the individual – the message of the 2 energy itself. Free Will is all about CHOICE, and it really is time for us to start making choices that will ensure not only survival but our capacity to thrive on this wonderful planet we call home.
Note added 7/21/2009: By the way, the number of the Staples Center building in Los Angeles where Michael Jackson’s memorial took place is 1111.
Of course, caution is needed. Caution is a form of fear, by the way – another reason why we can’t ‘do away’ with fear altogether. It is a major part of our sensory system – our awareness:
Not everyone is evolving at the same pace or in the same way. Some are resisting these changes with all their might. And there is a LOT of might out there whose intentions are not loving at all, at least not beyond their immediate family, group, or point of view. Their goal is to gain or maintain control. Their energy is extreme.
Whenever the true responses of our wills are denied, it is reflected in the world as oppression, war, slavery, poverty, hunger, ignorance, cruelty, unfairness, and all kinds of atrocities. I believe that evil is anything/anyone who deliberately deprives the freedom of another, including those who manipulate others into thinking they’re free when, in fact, they are under control. We are still subject to the dangerous and violent reactions of an old reality as the pressure of new light pushes it into the past.
There will always be extremes, and they will always be dangerous. (Read Numerology And The Extremes). We cannot afford to let our desire for positiveness blind us to the many realities that we really DO need to stay aware of. Bio-electro-magnetic beings cannot be ‘all’ positive and expect to be balanced, and we cannot evolve without full consciousness of what we are evolving from.
It is our emotional energy and its framework of senses and feelings that provides balance, but because we have always avoided feelings that felt unpleasant, we have not been able to develop or even understand our full emotional power as yet. Although we are making a start on that now, I think it could take a long time to understand the process of emotional healing because it’s not something we can know in advance of having the actual experience. Humanity is exploring and discovering itself, individually and collectively, and we’re all learning as we go.
We are both positive and negative and, yes, our emotions are our negative energy. Of course, we have largely misunderstood and misused the word ‘negative’ to the extent that it is now associated with anything ‘bad’. Our emotions are our feminine energy – our magnetism. Our consciousness is our masculine energy – our electricity. Our bodies are our physical form on Earth and are part of the balance as well.
Nothing hurts a feeling more than non-acceptance, and nothing heals an ill feeling better than acceptance. The reason that emotions often appear so wretched and ugly is because they have been denied and degraded and, in many ways tortured because of the mind’s reluctance to feel anything ‘negative’. Well, humanity is having a big, beautiful and amazing change of mind right now – a shift of consciousness – as it begins to accept parts of what we call the subconscious – parts of our own individual existence that we were always too afraid to even look at, let alone bring into consciousness.
The subconscious IS the depths of denial itself. And there’s a lot of hurt feelings locked up in there which simply need to be accepted by consciousness – brought back to consciousness – where they can heal, leave the body and go on their way. There is also a lot of truth and wisdom locked away in the subconscious which is making its way to consciousness in the form of INSIGHT and INSPIRATION – more traits of the 11/2 energy.
This is emotional spontaneity – emotional health – the movement of emotions through and out of the body. But our resistance to this natural course has resulted in a huge back up of feelings that needs to be cleared out of the body, not pushed further in. We are feeling our emotions more deeply because we are in a segment of the journey in which those old and sometimes bitter emotions – ill feelings – that are trapped inside, are coming to the surface to find the one thing that will heal them. ACCEPTANCE. That’s what emotional healing is. Our emotions are not what’s been getting in the way of our evolvement. They are an essential part of our selves that we’ve been avoiding, and it is our resistance to them that has been holding us back.
People are starting to question what were once their basic beliefs, and there are many ‘positive’ people out there who are starting to feel unsure about many things. There are many ‘negative’ people out there, people who are emotional by nature, who are realizing that happiness really does begin on the inside – just as long as you let yourself feel it. In order to find the balance we need, each orientation may have to experience what feels like role reversal for a while: emotional/creative people leaning towards the intellect, and spiritual/intellectual people being drawn towards their emotions. Balance comes at the same rate that positive and negative are able to mix, accept and understand each other. We are talking about FUSION here.
11 is the number most associated with nuclear energy – and what we are doing by merging these energies is finding our center (our nucleus) and, in doing so, reaching true balance. Along with correct understanding, we then have the basis of true PERSONAL POWER which we cannot attain without free will. In the process, life can feel like one big stressful trip, the ultimate emotional roller coaster.
Can you feel the enormity of what’s happening to us, to each other and in the world? As we make more of the subconscious conscious, (come out of denial), hypocrisy is falling away. Scandals, exposés and atrocities dominate the world stage, and truth is pouring through. It may not be happening as quickly as some would like, and for others everything is happening far too quickly. The point is that it IS happening, and we are already SO much more sensitive to and aware of what is real and what is mere façade.
We can see what’s happening with our own eyes, hear with our ears, taste with our tongues, smell with our noses, touch with our hands, and SENSE with our sensitivity – our emotions. We are evolving as a species by honing our existing senses and developing our capacity to FEEL. This is changing what was always an aggressive, greedy, war-like ‘man’s world’ into a world in which masculine and feminine energy can coexist in a state of equality, which is what balance is.
Our emotions are our feminine energy. How do you think the phrase “getting in touch with my feminine side” came into being? It started when some men realized that there simply had to be more to life than war, greed, and dominance, and all the other BS that comes from raw unevolved masculine energy. However, men, to this very day, are still ridiculed for being anything less than macho, which translates in the human psyche as the belief that to show emotion denotes weakness whether it be anger, fear, grief, or even joy and love. No, emotion is not weakness, it is HONESTY!
That’s what we’re evolving towards. Truth – not through some grand predestined plan or genetic wiring, but because it is what we want. The collective will of humanity wants to live in the full light of reality instead of the shallowness of denial. We want the truth and we are willing it into being.
Even the media is changing in response to this. So many fresh new faces and voices are making a serious effort to report the truth, not only because their careers depend on it, but because they themselves are a part of the massive change that is happening on Earth. The way we communicate has changed drastically. Ordinary people, many with no “traditional” experience in journalism, are reporting the truth and are being taken seriously. The old-school mainstream media can no longer control and select information about our world, and if they don’t wake up and evolve along with the rest of us, they too will soon be history.
However, we are going to have to deal with raw, unevolved feminine energy in the course of our evolvement, and make no mistake, denied emotions can be very dangerous. Where feelings have been held down, denied and hurt the most, I’m sure there will be some awful actions taking place as they burst out of people who have the least acceptance for what they’re feeling and, therefore, no control over how they express themselves. That’s why INTENT is SO important, and we need to ask ourselves whether our overall intent is LOVING or whether it is indifferent to how our presence effects others. If your intent is loving, you will also be fully aware that there is never a need to hurt yourself or anyone else in the process of releasing emotions.
This month, we travel through a series of master numbers and karmic influences which appear to be sending a variety of information, messages and warnings. There are ominous feelings everywhere that so much more is about to unfold.
On July 22, 2009, we will experience the longest-lasting total solar eclipse of this century, its path starting in India, and crossing through Nepal, Bangladesh, Bhutan, Myanmar, and China, and then a small portion of Japan. I know nothing of astrology, but I can tell you that the numerology involved on that day produces an emphasis on the number 29, and brings us a profusion of 7, 11 and 22 energy. And that’s where I will leave this for now. I’ll be writing more throughout the month.